a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Sunday, August 5, 2012

The Girl in the Sunflowers.

Sunflower Dress: Thrifted.
Black Ankle Boots: H&M.
Brown Leather Satchel: Forever21.
Mustard Beret, Black Infinity Scarf: Target

Hello there!
I thought I'd wear a pretty sunflower dress today to help brighten up my mood.

Yesterday I was a mess, but today I've been good. Haven't cried at all which is certainty a step above the sobbing mess I was last night. Sometimes I don't even know why I'm sad about all this. It's not even like anything has changed. We still talk on the phone 2-3 times a day. We still text. We still tease each other like always. And tomorrow I'm seeing him like always. Things shouldn't be that big of a deal but for some reason they are for me.

I'm always the one catching myself, asking if I'm being too overbearing, too like a 'girlfriend.' It seems like he could care less and just acts like everything is normal. In one aspect, it is relieving. Nothing feels changed, my peace and equilibrium still set in stone and in it's place. On the other hand, nerve wracking. Everything may feel alright on the exterior, but interiorly I still feel like a mess. I just ended a five year relationship. Why am I not more upset? Why does this not feel like a break up?

I just don't really know anymore. For once, I suppose I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. I guess at the end of the day I'm just going to do what makes me happy. It's the best I can do.

Hope you all had a swell weekend
With much love, Lauren.

P.S.If you plan on purchasing anything from my 'shop my closet' store in the next week (until August 8), use the code 19BDAY to get 20% off!


SM said...

This is such a lovely look. The dress is really cute!

Unknown said...

Aw. I hope you start to feel better in the very near future, but I understand it's really hard. It'll take time, but it'll feel okay soon.
You look super pretty in this outfit. I'm in love with your yellow beret paired with the sunflower dress. It makes me wish I had a sunflower dress so I could wear my yellow beret with it!

marcia said...

This is so gorgeous.. I love the beret. You are so lovely, Lauren.

Anonymous said...


Think about the word "Expectations".

In a relationship- if we have the wrong ones, or too many or even none- it can turn out to be stressful, not happy.

If you let go of your expectations and let relationships and love flow to a natural course- it will go as it should. Maybe right now you are in a low tide. Perhaps at some point in the future, you will be at a high tide.


Elizabeth said...

You look so pretty today! love your outfit. Keep being beautiful. Your very good at it.

Lizzy <3

Kezzie said...

How pretty! I have the perfect Sunflower headband that would go perfectly with that!
I'm so sorry, I've been away, but I am so sorry to hear about the pain of your breakup. I will also reply to your e-mail, I've been so busy, I haven't had the time to devote to it that I want to. Rest assured, I will reply x

Nerd Burger said...

I love the move away from pastels and into flowers. Still got your little hat though :)
This is a great set of photos. You look so relaxed and happy.

Laura said...

Cute dress! Your hair looks really lovely!


Unknown said...

Hey girlie,

It broke my heart to read your past posts, since I have been lacking of interwebz at camp. I hope that you are doing okay, even though that is so lame to say right now. My heart and thoughts go out to you and Matt. Keep your chin up girl!

By the way, this is my favorite dress of yours!

Shoot me an email if you need someone to chat to!


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