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Monday, August 1, 2011

Who I've Been, Who I Am, And Who I Will Become.

Every year for my birthday I love to do a "Lauren through the years" post to see how far I've come in my life time... To not only see the changes in my life, but to reflect on them, as well. My life of now eighteen years today. It's so funny when looking back at old pictures of myself. They bring back so many memories: many good, many bad. The pictures bring back insecurities, heartbreak, self-destruction, inner struggles... Along with all that they bring back triumphs, victories, confidence, growing, self-acceptance, and finding myself.

If I had to look at my life and say if I am proud of who I've become, I would have to say...yes. I've had struggles of self acceptance, inner and outer in the past. There have been times in my life where I never thought I would reach a true pinnacle of happiness with myself. I never thought that I would be able to look in the mirror and tell myself, "Lauren, you are worth something. You are beautiful and intelligent, witty and sensitive, emotional and caring, and most of all... there's not another someone like you in this entire world..."

I cry as I type these words right now because turning eighteen is so much more than a number to me. It's more than the fact that I can vote or buy cigarettes, be considered an actual adult or open my own banking account... It's about looking back at my life and being satisfied. With who I'm been, who I am, and who I will become. Nothing can ever replace any of that.
With much love, Lauren.


leah jean said...

Happy birthday! I hope your day is as beautiful as you. Because you are beautiful. It's just a fact. :)

Unknown said...

You are beautiful and it seems like you always have been, God has big plans for you in life Lauren you're such an inspiration!


Jackie @ EatLove&Style said...

Happy birthday, and may you be blessed with many more to come.


Unknown said...

Happy 18th birthday! I hope it was super amazing. I just realized you're only a few days older than my sister. I feel old! :) I'm loving the old pictures.

Stacey Kay said...

Awww cute post!

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Em [The Writer] said...

Awww what a cutie!

Happy birthday dear!

Kimia Kline said...

beautiful and thoughtful post. happy birthday :)

Elyse (Give Me Bows) said...

Happy birthday lovely <3 You should definitely be so proud of who you are, I wish I had half your wisdom and style when I was your age! x

wafflegarden said...

you have every reason to be proud of who you are. you are probably more mature than a lot of girls your age who cant feel special yet and your blog is going to help bring them there.

Shady Del Knight said...

I love these pictures of you through the years, Lauren. You have survived the awkward and difficult times that everybody experiences in their youth. You have arrived at the threshold of adulthood with all of its possibilities, privileges and responsibilities. Clearly you believe in yourself and know that you have the power to create your own good fortune and shape your own destiny. Happy birthday once again and best wishes for a fabulous year ahead!

Maria Elyse said...

Aw, Lauren, may I just say that you were (and are!) extremely adorable? Your Arthur and D.W. sweatshirt in one of the pics made my day, haha.

It's amazing to look back and see who we used to be, who we are now, and who we still aspire to be. You've made it through so much; you're smart, beautiful, empathetic, relatable, and strong. Going through so many different things in life really refines and defines us.

I'm glad you had a great birthday! It looks like it was oh so much fun! :)

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Midwest Muse said...

You've always been super adorable! This post is awesome for reflecting. You definitely should keep it up every year. It's always good to realize that you are actually happy with who you are.


I'm a sucker for a good emotional journey. yes you are so worth it and this is great that you've come to this conclusion on your own. your own awareness of who you are is amazing.

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Jul said...

Happy birthday dear! Your words are so wise, I can't believe you're only 18. I'm so happy for you, being satisfied with your life is such a great thing.


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