a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Please, Just Let Me Go...

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Navy Sailor Dress, Bow Hat, Silver Necklace: Tan Heels: All Thrifted.

Some days I look at myself as nothing short of a hypocrite. I live in this town, this awful, awful town. A town where beauty is held above all and wealth is like the key to the gates of heaven. Everything is just a contest. A silly little contest. The people, their lives are filled with trying to out do each other. It starts from the time of birth and goes until the final days of death. The cut throat and merciless competition among those of the same kind. It's relentless.

You're never beautiful enough. You're never popular enough. You're never wealthy, nor, friendly, nor happy enough. There's always someone breathing down your neck, waiting for you to fail. And when you fail, it is them that will take you place. They don't care about you or your life. Your heart nor your soul. They just care about being the best. The very best there is.

Sometimes I fall into their trap. Their grips take hold of my throat and cut off the last bits of precious air I have left. They suffocate me until I gasp and plead with my eyes as the light begins to fade. "Please, don't turn me into you" I cry in my mind. Don't turn me into you, what ever you do. I just want to be free. I want to live and breath and be happy. Please, just let me go...

With much love, Lauren.
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18 comments

leah jean said...

i don't think you have to worry about becoming like that. you're too honest, smart, classy, and genuinely beautiful for any of that nonsense. :)

life in a nutshell

kate gabrielle said...

a) I LOVE your dress!

b) I live in a very similar town.. it's stifling and suffocating and sometimes you feel like it's just crushing your soul. But I think as long as you recognize how superficial and callous the other people are, you don't have to worry about becoming that way yourself! You're definitely too smart & secure in being an individual to get sucked into that stuff :)

strawberry moth said...

Oh my goodness! I love your hat!! You look so stunning!

xo, Strawberry Moth

Laura said...

I love your necklace! If you are aware of it around you, I'm sure you won't let it influence you!

Laura
whitewinters.blogspot.com

Annabelle Fleur said...

You don't have to be anything you don't want to be!!!
You look so beautiful, I simply adore your dress and hat! I love your blog and now following! Maybe you'll have time to visit my blog:)

Kisses,
Annabelle
http://vivaluxury.blogspot.com

Sara said...

i adore your outfit! very nautical!

http://sarassweetstyle.blogspot.com/

Stacey Kay said...

This hat is too cute! I need to start wearing my vintage hats more often.

Was wondering if you'd be opposed to being the subject of a new Who Wore It Best post on Examiner.com/Cleveland between you and Jessica. The swapped skirt that you guys traded would be the perfect subject!

I featured Sarah's Laundry about two weeks ago and it was tons of fun!

xoxo
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Jamie-Lee Burns said...

Darling, you look gorgeous - and I think you worry too much about that, it's easy to get wrapped up in things but it seems you're entirely all too aware so I doubt that will happen to you!

Emily, Ruby Slipper Journeys said...

I come from a suburb like that. They drove me nuts, but it's worth remembering that there are still good-hearted people out there in the mix--somewhere. ;)

This whole look is adorable! What crazy thrifting skills you must have!

Midwest Muse said...

You're a beautiful girl. You're strong willed and you've got more style than money could buy. Being young and in a small town is suffocating, but when you get out, it will be well worth it!

Women in Dress said...

First, you look great in that sailor dress.

Second, be yourself. That's the most important thing to do. No matter what they say or what they do :)

Jhordyn Ashley said...

Hang in there dearest, you seem like a very strong person and I know you can set yourself free, never give up. Lovely dress as well, oh the treasures we can find if we look. You have a beautiful land here.

xx and hugs

Jhordyn

Kelly Hicks said...

You look beautiful! Love that dress. Stay true to who you are!

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Sick by Trend said...

you look very very beautiful here :D

xx

www.sickbytrend.com

jess said...

That hat is so adorable.

Kezzie said...

It sounds really hard! Please remember that when you are out of school (one year!)that life really does improve, you WILL be free (come to England!). You are fab! Keep focusing on things that are above, not of things of the earth!
That said, Soooo envious of that gorge sailor dress!!!!!!! I've been searching for one for ages!

Rowan | R E D R E I D I N G H O O D said...

Love this look! The bow hat is just adorable!
Thank you for your lovely comment, dear! Would you like to follow each other? If so, just follow me and I'll follow back!

Loves,
Rowan

www.redreidinghood.blogspot.com

Q said...

Your blog is so cool :) i love this outfit you have on, it's so cute!

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