a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Friday, December 6, 2013

Heart to Heart.

Gray Lace Dress: Forever21.
Leather Jacket: H&M.
Green Wool Hat, Boots: Thrifted.
Lipstick in MAC's Rebel.

Lately I've been troubled with my friendships. I'm always in constant worry of being a bad friend, or that my friends will get bored of me. Which always seems to happen somehow and has occurred more than enough times throughout my life. The past makes me insecure and it's funny-- I'm not at all insecure about my appearance, but when it comes to my personality, I just can't shake the insecurities. I don't feel good enough, fun enough, interesting enough, worthy enough to be friends with people because that's what I've been told before. Those things just sort of stick around with you.

But tonight was just what I needed. A quiet, sit down with a box of triple cheese pizza and talking with my friends Haley and Sabrina. It was just comforting to know that they have and do go through these same feelings and things I'm going through and that I'm not alone. I am so appreciative of them. They are so helpful, so kind and caring, and genuinely, truly value me just as I am. I'm fearful to give myself to people in friendships. I can do it in writing on here to all of you, but when it comes to really letting my guard down and being vulnerable with friends I struggle. But thankfully as I look back on this semester and what I missed out on and what I hope to improve; I'm looking forward to coming back next with a more fearless attitude when it comes to friends. Grateful to Sabrina and Haley for helping me see that more clearly. Those gals are the best I could ask for.

With much love, Lauren.


Elliementary, My Dear said...

I have trouble with friendships/insecurities too so I totally get how you feel. It can be hard.

Also, I'm loving your outfit, especially the hat. You look gorgeous.

Lily Fang said...

Oh, Lauren. I feel exactly the same way at times. I have many people I'm friendly with, but few close friends I tell everything. And we all have insecurities--one of my greatest fears is that everyone secretly hates me but they're just pretending to be nice. But luckily, it's just a petty thing and I have a couple wonderful friends to tell me otherwise.

I love this edgy look. The hat is a perfect touch to your lace dress.

Have a beautiful weekend!

Awestruck Sky said...

I love this outfit! Girl you can rock anything. Also, I just wanted to tell you that I love you very much and that you are such an amazing friend and such a blessing in my life. Thank you for being there for me last night!

Miche said...

Glad you got to spend a night with good friends. I definitely know the feeling of insecurity in friendships, I have a few that have just kind of, fizzled out, and I don't know why. I try to focus on the good ones and all the things ahead in life, instead of the past..it's hard sometimes, but sometimes it helps too

Miche from Buttons and Birdcages

Katie Selt said...

Oooh! Very witching!
That dress looks gorgeous on you!


Unknown said...

Having people put you down like that is so difficult, especially after years of it. I am trying to overcome something similar, dear. So glad you had the great night of fun with your pals. That is great therapy. And I promise you (promise you!) that you have SO much to offer as a friend. What little you show us here of you is fascinating and so attractive to me so I can only imagine the thoughts and feelings you keep inside. Such a cool dress! Those lacy sleeves are very va va va voom :) And your legs, even sans tights, are so pretty :) That hat is the cool fashion cherry on top!

Sammi said...

You're not alone in feeling like this, lovely girl. You are such a thoughtful, sensitive soul and even though you're insecure about friendships, ironically, your thoughtful qualities are one of the most wonderful things about you (and I'd imagine they actually make you a better friend!). Also, I love this outfit on you!

xox Sammi

Vicki said...

What a lovely outfit! That dress is so pretty, and I love that hat!

decked out in ruffles

xoFatima said...

Love the jacket so much! Been searching for a similiar one for ages but no luck so far..and we don't have a H&M in Australia.

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