a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Pour Out Praise.

Red Polka Dot Dress: Modcloth.
Lavender Sweater: Thrifted.
Bow Headband: Forever21.
Hinder Flats: c/o Pink and Pepper.

Yesterday I spent all day in the dorm. Mostly sleeping to my dismay. It seems like once I wake up late, I never really wake up for the rest of the day thereafter. That's why I'm not really fond of weekends, especially up here. They feel very long and tedious, and since I have nothing I have to do, I simply do nothing. Which feels so wasteful when I think about the days I have numbed here in my life. Taking a day off for yourself and relaxing is always good, but when you're already relaxed and feeling well and then you just do it to an extreme...well, then you just feel rather useless. I would have to say if I had to pick one of the seven deadly sins to be my downfall (wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, gluttony ya know) mine, without a doubt, would be sloth. It's something I really need to work on.

So today I wanted to get out and lift that feeling of nothingness that I had on my back from yesterday. I went out and took pictures amongst campus instead of just my usual little cove and it felt so freeing. It is just the best feeling, I feel like I lose myself and I can just think and I just move without really calculating what I'm doing and it's the most freeing feeling. I can't wait to do it more this summer. I hope to do it the rest of my life. I want to live in a place where I can always be with nature and feel His presence.

After I took these photos I went to H2o which is like a NAVS but on Sundays. My favorite part about 'church' is worship. It should probably be fellowship or hearing the word or something along those lines...but I can't help but just absolutely love to worship and show my love for God through that. For the 19ish years I was Catholic, I didn't worship. We sang old, ancient hymns and just read the lines out of tired lyrical books. But as I explored other sects of Christianity, I came to realize that I didn't have to worship like that. I felt no connection with my heart before. I just sang the lines with my mouth, not my heart. But when I worship now, I can feel Christ in me. I get to sway and dance and raise my hands and close my eyes and give praise that comes from my inner being. It's the best way I can offer myself to Christ that I know.

With much love, Lauren.


Kezzie said...

Worship is what the angels do- ever hour or everyday worshipping and singing 'Worthy is the lamb that was slain'- I love the psalm that talks of the sea, the trees, raising their hands and singing in worship- not sure which one off hand? 92?
Of course, we can have favourite parts- just like as a musician, that's the bit I can give the post to!
What a pretty dress and headband

Elliementary, My Dear said...

These are great colors on you :) Love the red dress. Glad you you are able to grow closer to God through worship.

N. Kelly said...

Hey Lauren,

I'm so glad that you are feeling closer to Christ now. I am a young lady, and have been raised Catholic. I have enjoyed your blog for a couple of years and I would just like to encourage you to look deeper into the Catholic faith. Perhaps read the works of some of the saints, such as St. Therese of the Child Jesus, or Mother Theresa, to name a couple, and don't forget Pope Francis. His letters are pretty awesome! Also, look into the Catechism of the Catholic Church! I only want to encourage you not to jump to conclusions about the Church, before you study it and see what it is all about. My experiences ( in my 17 years) in the Church have just brought me closer to Christ, and every time I go to Mass, hear His word from the pulpit, profess Him in the creed, meditate on His Passion and Resurrection and receive Him in Holy Communion, I only feel closer to Him. I hope you'll pray about what I've shared here, and continue to grow in your relationship with Christ, the Prince of Peace! :)
N. Kelly

Anonymous said...

You're gorgeous! You look like Geena Davis! I love your blog, the fashion, and your insights on life! Thanks for the awesome posts I look forward to! :)

SomeoneLikeYou said...

Hi N.Kelly!

Thank you so much for sharing your awesome insights about the Catholic Church with me! So beautiful to see the relationship you've formed with Him through Catholicism and it's an awesome testimony to others. I really appreciate you encouraging me to look more into the catholic faith and give it a chance, but for me it just didn't work out. My heart was not in that type of service, worship, and praise and it was not the method that I felt connected with God. I have never felt closer and had more of a real relationship with Christ since I stopped going to catholic mass and now go to non denominational Christian services. It's just what suits me and my personality type and spiritual thirst best. I have nothing against the Catholic Church--all
Of my family still is so! I just found that I needed to seek the path to which I felt closest to Christ and follow it, which was not Catholicism.

Hope you can understand! :)

Unknown said...

Your first paragraph totally reminds me of the book the Beautiful and Damned...indolence is pretty much the whole theme.

Alexandra Marie said...

I'm so encouraged to hear how you are feeling, Lauren! This is right on!! Lots of love <3 Alex


Anonymous said...

Giving praise and worship is not a selfish act, but rather a selfless one. It's not meant to be all song, swaying and dancing all the time, just like the Savior's journey was not either nor the faith journeys of many of prophets of the old testament. Its awesome you feel much closer to God through the dancing and music. Deep worship requires the balance of time on your knees praying, giving up something of yourself for others and reflecting on the mysteries of faith (through the rosary or some other way). A very entertaining way to understand this better is to watch old episodes of "Joan of Arcadia" online. I think that program showed a very human and real way of worshiping (without mention of any religious affiliations) on a daily life basis. Let us know what you think. BTW- I am a musician and play the flute and harp in the Catholic mass. I understand and appreciate that music deeply connects us to many emotions, especially ones of love and worship and most painfully, death and grief.

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