a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Last Day.

Pink Sweater, T-Strap Heels, Clutch: Thifted.
Floral Dress: Forever21.

Today is my last day in my hometown. I'm leaving tomorrow morning at nine to travel back to Kent.

I don't really know how I feel or what to think. I'm just scared and confused and worry some I suppose which is probably very strange for you all to hear. I've grown so comfortable at home here again this last month; it's begun to feel like my actual home again. Visits to my favorite coffee shop, my loving family, the bed I wake up in and have the light shining on my face. Baths and Mcdonald's runs and the little, beautiful things that remind me of him. I never thought I'd say it but I'm going to miss this place very much again.

I feel like I'm starting college all over again even though I have a sememster underneath my belt and it went better than I could have ever expected. I'm just really worried about failing. Not necessarily out of college but at the experience itself. Silly, silly, silly. I fell in love with Kent last semester, got all A's, and lived the life I always wanted. Why am I so scared?

New classes, new people, new start again. I know I don't want to stay here for the rest of my life because it's boring and uninspiring and sad. But I love the comfort and familiarity. I'm just dreading starting everything over again tomorrow. The goodbyes. The tears. The 'I'll miss yous.' I just want it to be all over with and to be settled in and start getting used to my home again.

I'm scared guys. I feel like I did five months ago. A scared little girl; and I don't even know why. 

Next time I write to you all I'll be back in Kent. Talk soon

With much love, Lauren.


Unknown said...

I love that pink sweater! The black detail is absolutely perfect!

With 5 semesters under my belt, I still feel a little smidgen of sadness when I leave home too. But, it last for about a day, if that. Don't worry! You'll get back to Kent and it will feel like you never left it.


Carlee, Little Sloth said...

Hey girl I felt the same way when I came back to college last week. It lasted about a day and a half then things were back to normal. New classes are scary sometimes. But remember you still have all those great friends you met last semester!
Almost Endearing

D said...

God, I so know what you mean. I've been away from home for so many months and I was sure I was not going to miss my hometown again. But during the holidays, I just got used to the presence of my parents and my old life and I kind of didn't want to come back. Turns out I was afraid for nothing, cause it really is better at college ;) I'm sure it will be a little weird the first day but then you won't even have time to think of this anymore. I love you so much <3
P.S. I've been meaning to ask you for a couple of weeks. Have you watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower? I feel like this is something you would love. :*

mscarcepearl said...

hey! your looks are very cute! i use to hype them all one lookbook! lol i really love your style, this out fit is cute! love the pink; and i also want to encourage you for your return! dont be scared! everything will be alright :)

sorry for my poor english i'm training lol!

Maria said...

This outfit is so sweet and beautiful as always, Lauren! I'm dying for a key necklace of my own... I think I'll ask for one for my 16th birthday (which is coming up in a few weeks!)

I'm in senior year now and start school again in three weeks; I honestly could not be more scared/ anxious about it. So I can relate fully to you right now. My Mum keeps telling me though to take one day at a time, work hard and everything will fall into place. Take that advice with me and we can both push on together <3 (hehe, that sounds so-o cheesy!!)

xoxo Maria

Britney @ Scout and Company said...

You will be amazing Lauren! You always are.

Lauren said...

Haha don't worry, I feel the exact same way. I'm leaving tomorrow at 11 and it's so weird because I finally got used to being home again and now I have to get used to college all over again? Oh well, I'm sure we'll both be just fine. :)

Unknown said...

I know how you feel! It seems like college can be your home for a while and then you come back home, and it confuses you! That's what happens to me. But after a few semesters, everything will seem normal. :) For me, it has gotten easier the longer I've been in college.

I hope everything goes well :)

xo, gina

Marci R. Rinaldi said...

Love the outfit! ♥

Ellie Balangue said...

I'm sure you'll get used to again on Kent when you get back given time. It's just there's no really place like home <3 Have a wonderful life on Kent <3


ftashion said...

Love how your sweater pink matches your lips!


Et tu, tutu? said...

I kind of felt the same way before going back to school too, but then you settle in and you wonder why you ever left. <3


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OrigamiGirl said...

I think most people feel that way, it's reasonable to be nervous after switching life styles again. The real thing is how you feel when you arrive at Kent. When you feel happy and settled just being back. I think a place can never be home until you've been away from it for a while. The home-feeling you get when you return to it is so comforting.

Viktoria K said...

Your outfits are just so amazing that its insane! Don't worry about new beginnings - they are usually a start of something new and awesome! So good luck to you & rock there with your outfits :)


Tonya said...

If it makes you feel any better I'm scared about starting my second semester as well and I genuinely don't know why! I can completely relate! Gorgeous look darling!! I wish you luck xo

Unknown said...

you are so beautiful and sweet (:
love your blog !


Teddi said...

once you begin, it'll be like riding a bike. you'll remember what to do. blessings!

Anonymous said...

Lovely outfit!
And don't worry...you'll do great ;-)

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Unknown said...

Love the clutch! It is adorable! Sorry I haven't been commenting much lately..I am so behind on Internet things right now with the baby. :( I am still a faithful reader though! You are so stylish and awesome, I love each and every post! :)

R said...

You are beautiful in pink!


Vezilka said...

First of all, your blog is amazing. I like your style sense, it's so feminine, refreshing and relaxed. I am so glad I found you on Chictopia :) And about dear old sweet home... don't worry, you have the world waiting for you. I, too left home for university 10 years ago and started living in the capital. Yes, I miss home and all it represents, but I have found a new life, MY LIFE on my own and I wouldn't change a thing if I could. As you said, small hometowns are sad and uninspiring when you have dreams and hopes, but are always a warm place to go back to, to cherish, to love.
Hugs from Macedonia :)

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