a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Dear Lauren,

After five years with no bangs, I've decided to go back to my original roots! (No pun intended, ha.)

Getting these blunt bangs really made me think about my past and have somewhat of a nostalgic moment. I remember hating my blunt bangs with such fervor in the fifth grade. They made me feel so ugly and like a complete nerd. Along with my bangs, I just plain out hated my overall appearance. I thought of myself as fat and nerdy, and had awful self-esteem. I felt this way for many years, probably up until my sophomore year when I came to a final acceptance of myself. Looking back, I honestly couldn't be more proud of how far I've come.

Recently for an English project we had to write a letter to our six year old self telling them what to watch out for, what to expect, and so on. Here's just a small excerpt from the letter:

"Oh, and another important piece of advice: love yourself. Don't compare yourself to those other girls. You are just as beautiful as all of them. Even if you don't see it now, someday you will. Don't call yourself fat, ugly, and four eyes. You don't need to wear tons of makeup and be a size zero to look gorgeous. You don't need to have blonde hair and blue eyes to be the prettiest girl at school. Just know, please just know Lauren, that you are beautiful. Beautiful on the inside, but also on the outside with your Bugs Bunny glasses, frizzy hair, and extra large jeans. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise."

I cried so much when I wrote this portion for my letter because it just took me back to my days as a young girl, who hated myself. I think loving yourself is one of the most important things in life, and when you love yourself you can then start to love your life. Gaining a love for myself and a confidence is probably one of the things I am most proud of in my life!

With much love, Lauren.


Unknown said...

Awwww. I relate to this so much (who wouldn't?!)... I was a totally dorky kid, and it wasn't until recently that I really came into my own appearance-wise. It's hard in some ways to look at old photographs because it can be kind of painful to remember how you felt about yourself when it was taken, but can also be liberating and empowering to know that now, no matter how lonely or sad or unhinged you feel, you love yourself. :)

Unknown said...

Hi darling !!!
send it to:

as my E-mail is going all wonky right now ;)
If u can't send one. I could pop on the one with your new haircut and pearls?

None said...

I was a nerdy insecure kid, and of course I look back now at photos of my younger self and realize I wasn't the ugly fright I thought I was. I'm glad you figured it out while you're still young. You're so pretty and stylish, and the bangs look great on you.

April said...

Every six year old should get that letter. Love your bangs!

Maria said...

you look amazing Lauren! I agree, it's so great that you figured this out at a young age. When I was your age I was on a self-destructive path and it took me several years before I realized that even if I wasn't as beautiful as other girls, I was just as good. I love myself now, but that wasn't always the case. I'm glad that you're evolving and realzing that who you are is beautiful, and always will be.

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