a personal style blog by Lauren Pfieffer

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Between the Emptiness.

Dress: Modcloth.
Sweater: My grandmother's.
Tights: Target.
Hair Bow: Forever21.
Loafers: c/o Pink and Pepper.
Lipstick in MAC's 'Rebel.

What if you had the chance to look back on any day of your life and relive what you felt, thought, saw? It's be like you were almost at that moment again, like it never left.  It's impossible, isn't it? To go back to a time we wish we could remember more accurate, perhaps feel that happiness one more time.

But all of that is possible. You just have to journal.

I've written in a journal every night before I fall asleep for nearly two years now. I started on New Year's of 2012 and haven't missed a single day since. I read an article online the other day on why it's important to journal and it hit home with me because all of the reasons were why I myself journal. Some were things I didn't even realize but when pointed out, I saw how true it was for why I make my half-asleep self groggily write about anything that comes to my mind on the blank lines of a $6 journal I bought from Target.

I want to remember life in vivid detail. Not just day to day, but journaling is a depiction of life. It takes the journey we go through in all of its entirety. A lot of days I have nothing special to write about. It's I sat in my dorm, I did my homework, and I wasted far too much time on the computer. But other days are profound. The smallest moment that changes my way of thinking, a monumental decision that alters my life course. These small to large details of my every day life give an accurate depiction that I would other wise forget. All of my years would just blend into each other and become this messy entanglement of blurriness. There wouldn't be these defined days with specific feelings that I can never go back to and feel again. 

Think about that. What I write about today will not be what I write about tomorrow. In the sense that by tomorrow I'm a completely different person already. I've seen things and heard things and felt things that I didn't the day before and it totally alters me and what I could/am writing about. Incredible. But with journaling, I freeze that moment in time with who I was that day with all of the little details that go unnoticed that shape us every day. 

I just cannot express enough how much journaling has changed my life. I look forward to journaling until the day I die. It is this beautiful, small portion of my day I look forward to anxiously. That blank page with lines and my crappy pen that's always half out of ink. I want to read these journals again and again and again throughout my life and relive the girl I was and see how I get to the girl that I am. I want to pass these journals down to whoever I believe will appreciate them, so that they can read who I was and that maybe it will help them figure out a little bit of who they are, too. 

Just journal. It doesn't have to be long. It doesn't have to be deep,. It doesn't even have to make sense. Just do it. You'll thank yourself later.

With much love, Lauren.


Unknown said...

I really like the idea of journaling but I'm not sure I'd be able to find the time. I already have to write so much for school that writing anything more seems like too much work haha. I like that your life is chronicled though. In a way, my blog is like my life chronicle. At least for the past couple years.

But anyway, this outfit. So so cute. I absolutely love the rust-colored tights with your adorable blue dress. The big bow and bun are perfect accessories for this outfit.

Anonymous said...

You are so inspiring, Lauren. I think I might try journaling sometime. By the way, Rebel looks fantastic on you. Oh, I just love it!

Love, Amy

Alexandra Marie said...

Gosh, I'm always worried to journal because I feel like someone will stumble across it one day- set up for major embarrassment haha. I've always wanted to though. I managed a while back to write a few pages but tore them up that night- la vie. Love this outfit and your hair is adorable like that! Alex


Anonymous said...

I love your outfit and congratulations on being featured in seventeen magazine! It's so cool to know that someone who goes to the same college as me has a fashion blog. I love your blog by the way!

Lovelyladyjb said...

You look lovely! I love the idea of starting a journal. I use my blog as a way to journal, but think I could be more intimate with a real journal.

anna gutermuth said...

I journaled every day for almost 5 years, and I haven't been very into it lately... You just inspired me to pick up my pen before bed tonight.

And you have entirely convinced me that I NEED MAC's Rebel in my lipstick collection!

Unknown said...

I wish I had the discipline to journal. That is what my blog was at first but it has morphed in all different directions now :) Lovely dress, your hair is gorgeous like that and those red tights are amazing on you!!! Wow!


Helen Iv said...

You're so lovely!

Martina said...

looooove your lipstick!

Midwest Muse said...

I love your hair and the colors in this.

Anonymous said...

nice post! i love your dress! ;)
Irene Wibowo

Unknown said...

I used to journal pretty diligently but over the past year I've slacked majorly on journaling. I think it's a beautiful thing to be able to look back on your life in this way, even if it is a seemingly insignificant day. Also, I am in love with your lipstick, I need that color in my life, fabulous!

Anonymous said...

Those tights are so gorgeous, and they look great with the blue dress! cute shoes, too.

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