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Saturday, April 2, 2011

Time Changes People.

April 2nd, 2010

Sometimes just for kicks I go back through the old archives of my blog and look at my posts. It's always so intriguing to see how much I've changed in just one year. Now my hair is a lot longer. My face a little less childlike. My photography a bit more stronger. My posing quite less awkward. But yes, just as time changes physical appearance, it most certainly changes a person's inner appearance, as well.

Sometimes I hardly recognize the girl in the old pictures. I look at her and see how young and foolish she looks. She's ready to believe anything anyone says to her, and she surely is not ready to be called anything much more than a child. So much hasn't happened to her yet and she still looks through the world with bright, innocent eyes. She hasn't been totally isolated yet. She hasn't lost the battle with OCD for a short period of time. She hasn't starved herself. She hasn't lost friends. She hasn't experienced her first death. She hasn't quite come into herself yet.

In just a year I can see the physical changes that have taken place, but for me those aren't the ones that matter. It's the inner self changes that matter. I've grown so much more stronger. So much more wiser in just one year. I have come to an acceptance and realization of many things in my life. I have progressed (and am still progressing) into the person I am meant to be.

With much love, Lauren.


Mila said...

I can see the differences too, both physical and inner. You're right, you look older now, and you're more comfortable with the camera, haha.

You've gone through so much this year, and most of it hasn't been to fun for you, it sounds like, but you're becoming stronger, and it's obvious from your writing. You'll look back to this year later and think of look how much stronger everything made you. Even though it's unfortunate that all this has happened, I know you'll be okay, and better than okay soon!:) You're on the path to who you're meant to be, like you said!


Shady Del Knight said...

I didn't know you a year ago, Lauren. You didn't know me. As time goes by we continue to learn more about each other and marvel at this unlikely friendship that has already yielded so much good. I have witnessed your maturation. You have learned not to wish that life would go easier on you because that's not how it works for any of us. You have learned to become tougher without becoming hard. Every day you become better equipped to meet life's challenges head on and to conquer them. There will be setbacks that test your resolve but you should welcome them because they strengthen you. In the past year you have learned something that I myself have also learned. Don't try to copy somebody else. Be an original. Do your own thing. In time people will discover you and appreciate you.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried,
I've had my fill - my share of losing.
But now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way -
Oh no. Oh no, not me.
I did it my way.

Sabrina Tassini said...

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ATW said...

great outfit! :) love it!


Unknown said...

I discovered your blog via chictopia and it blew me away...such marvellous outfit posts...I really love those little shorts xxx

Victoria / Justice Pirate said...

I think this is wonderful that you get to reflect on the person you once were and be able to see that you are happier with the person you are now!!

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